And now six years have already gone by... I have never yet told this story. The companions who met me on my return were well content to see me alive. I was sad, but I told them: "I am tired."

Now my sorrow is comforted a little. That is to say — not entirely. But I know that he did go back to his planet, because I did not find his body at daybreak. It was not such a heavy body... and at night I love to listen to the stars. It is like five hundred million little bells...

But there is one extraordinary thing... when I drew the muzzle for the little prince, I forgot to add the leather strap to it. He will never have been able to fasten it on his sheep. So now I keep wondering: what is happening on his planet? Perhaps the sheep has eaten the flower...

At one time I say to myself: "Surely not! The little prince shuts his flower under her glass globe every night, and he watches over his sheep very carefully..." Then I am happy. And there is sweetness in the laughter of all the stars.

But at another time I say to myself: "At some moment or other one is absent-minded, and that is enough! On some one evening he forgot the glass globe, or the sheep got out, without making any noise, in the night..." And then the little bells are changed to tears...

Here, then, is a great mystery. For you who also love the little prince, and for me, nothing in the universe can be the same if somewhere, we do not know where, a sheep that we never saw has — yes or no? — eaten a rose...

Look up at the sky. Ask yourselves: is it yes or no? Has the sheep eaten the flower? And you will see how everything changes...

And no grown-up will ever understand that this is a matter of so much importance!

- excerpt: le petit prince, antoine de saint-exupery

车骑得多快多远， 最终还是得倒回到家面对一切。

看见听见

- 戴佩妮

我开着车　车窗摇下左边
边听着歌　歌浮现谁的脸
脸躺着泪　泪滑落他的嘴
嘴角的话　话说的有多美
美丽的花　花开了多少回
回家的路　路究竟有多远
远方的灯　灯刺伤了双眼
眼睛里面　面目全非的视线

i’m feeling nothing feeling nothing
but only the love god gives me is something
i’m feeling nothing feeling nothing but you

你让我清楚的看见
星星在夜里的善变
恋人们脸上的终点
写满了欺骗　编织着永远　也辜负了永远

我听见 流言在纷飞的蔓延
你手着握着的誓言
灯火的侧面 编织着诺言 又成全了敷衍

什麽时候我才能看见
你真挚的表演
什麽时候你才能听见
我幸福的残缺

我看见
星星在夜里的善变
恋人们脸上的终点
写满了欺骗　编织着永远　也辜负了永远
我听见 流言在纷飞的蔓延
你手着握着的誓言
灯火的侧面 编织着诺言 又成全了敷衍

我看见
我听见
我看见
我听见
我看见了幸福
也听见了幸福的残缺

gone

gone
up in flames
the casket wheeled in
the tears rolling
and the familiar accompanying wailing
the casket never turned back
leaving behind only ashes and bones

gone, gone, gone.

-
prajnaparamita mantra, as proclaimed:
gate gate, paragate, parasamgate, bodhi svha.
"gone gone, gone beyond, gone altogether beyond, O what an awakening, all hail!"

故 空 中 无 色,
无 受 想 行 识.

the thing is, you'll never know what's going to happen.
so said by many few whom i know: "每天一步一步的过日子".

in the name of compassion

reference less
empathize more
for in the 5 senses we partake
brings comprehension here and beyond

-

and then, we recall - the 5 aggregates.

参透了, 必解;
求道之路, 要明.

hormat yang lepas; sekarang; dan masa depan.

tick.. tock..
lil clock
ticking slowly
biding its time

the challenge's up
there's a black out
reaching; seeking
the path before u

you know where it goes
but you do not know where it leads to

the sudden realization
when the light comes back on.

in faith
the sun will always rise
and the truth stood by can never be hidden.

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.--Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remember'd.

- William Shakespeare, Hamlet

read: http://www.productiveflourishing.com/how-to-swim-through-a-sea-of-social-troubles-without-drowning/

不求利或欲望; 只寻平安与方向.

innocence
an abstract concept
perhaps realized in depth by those who've seen the converse.

effects of caffeine
harmlessly harmful
tilts your perceptional balance
cautiously carelessly
myriadly awful.

天与地
看过了
参透了
也不够

有得悟
但无解
非悟能.

when it appears that the final wall is about to be breached
an oasis that befuddles and a desert to navigate through appears.
as said,
"always more steps in the journey"

pursuit

pursuing dreams
pursuing desires,
many levels,
multi fold
the concept of self
the association with own self
and there's the dissociation
oddly, strangely
incomplete, yet surreal
the ability to feel
for the self
for others
when the latter overwhelms the former.

how queer
the realization
of assimilation
and abstraction
when you live within
and you cease
maybe you didn't.

schrodinger's cat;
quantum confinement effects;
people;
self.

He who has gone,
so we but cherish his memory,
abides with us,
more potent,
nay,
more present than the living man.

- Antoine de Saint-Exupery

我都知道 - 梁静茹

爱上你不受局限 原来我心里也有某些狂野
就像摆脱了一切 两个人光脚奔跑在旷野
我错过 我了解 跳下爱情不该想先保险
越难猜 越特别 抱著夏天不该想像秋天

吻要闭上眼睛感觉 能带我飞也让我流泪
我都要 你知道
就算我们不说谎言 但心偶尔还是会断线
我知道 都知道

我们专心爱几秒 好不好

浪漫像魔术表演 明明是虚幻却逼真的没人 能发现
就算吵得再激烈 马上又被你抱紧在胸前
我错过 我了解 跳下爱情不该想先保险
越难猜 越特别 抱著夏天不该想像秋天

吻要闭上眼睛感觉 能带我飞也让我流泪
我都要 你知道
就算我们不说谎言 但心偶尔还是会断线
我知道 都知道 我们专心爱几秒 好不好

the line
to the line
to the form up point

to the front line
not turning back
there is no turning back

there is no time
you have to be ready
you could only check
and check
for the round that is chambered

see how they say their prayers before they go.

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svha.

while one can't change the world
one could live with sincerity
and attempt to bring a smile to whoever one contacts with.
'cause trust is not given nor earned, but felt through universal love.

we all hang on by faith
we all trust by faith
we all love by faith

we all live by faith.

“God grant me the serenity to accept
the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.”

~Reinhold Niebuhr, The Serenity Prayer

life is short
some live for the thrill
some for a purpose to serve
some who dont know - or yet know

some, like a soldier
fights for cause
ask him
does he really fight for the common cause?

some, like mercenaries
fights for benefit, gold, and the tangibles
for desires
question his soul you may
are u sure this is what you want to fight for?

some, freemen by status
with the will and freedom to chose
why did he chose to fight
is it what you're seeking for?

sometimes we don’t know, we won't know, or won't yet know.
sometimes we do know.

life is short.

nomadic
on the move
through different ground
bound to bound
line to line
when does it end?
you sure know when it does
feel it's presence while yr still around.

hark!
if u care to listen;
if u care to understand,
if u care to empathise;
if u care to see the world through another's eyes.

fall;
get back up;

fall; bleed;
get back up;

fall; bleed; loss;
get back up

fall; bleed; loss;
get back up

fall; bleed; loss; recover
get back up;
recover the loss; cease the bleed from the fall.

to live on, to move on, to carry on till the final destination.

emotions
propagation prone
the positive & the negative ones;
joy; love; anger; sadness or what not.

hang on!

hang on by faith!
hang on by drive,
by focus
by endurance
by will

hang on!
hang on by love.

because for love, there is no fear.

when the wind blows
every sinew aches
when it sinks through the bones
with the resonating chill of the ambient
accumulating the fatigue that never ceases
by the perturbing circumstances from motivation
the motivation to move
the endurance of maintaining focus

endure, endure, endure.

flobots - handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

Look at me, look at me
hands in the air like it's good to be alive
and I'm a famous rapper
even when the paths're all crookedy
I can show you how to do-si-do
I can show you how to scratch a record
I can take apart the remote control
And I can almost put it back together
I can tie a knot in a cherry stem
I can tell you about Leif Ericson
I know all the words to "De Colores"
And "I'm Proud to be an American"
Me and my friend saw a platypus
Me and my friend made a comic book
And guess how long it took
I can do anything that I want cuz, look:

I can keep rhythm with no metronome
No metronome
No metronome

I can see your face on the telephone
On the telephone
On the telephone

Look at me
Look at me
Just called to say that it's good to be
ALIVE
In such a small world
All curled up with a book to read
I can make money open up a thrift store
I can make a living off a magazine
I can design an engine sixty four
Miles to a gallon of gasoline
I can make new antibiotics
I can make computers survive aquatic conditions
I know how to run a business
And I can make you wanna buy a product
Movers shakers and producers
Me and my friends understand the future
I see the strings that control the systems
I can do anything with no assistance
I can lead a nation with a microphone
With a microphone
With a microphone
I can split the atoms of a molecule
Of a molecule
Of a molecule

Look at me
Look at me
Driving and I won't stop
And it feels so good to be
Alive and on top
My reach is global
My tower secure
My cause is noble
My power is pure
I can hand out a million vaccinations
Or let'em all die in exasperation
Have'em all healed of their lacerations
Have'em all killed by assassination
I can make anybody go to prison
Just because I don't like'em and
I can do anything with no permission
I have it all under my command
I can guide a missile by satellite
By satellite
By satellite
and I can hit a target through a telescope
Through a telescope
Through a telescope
and I can end the planet in a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handle bars
No handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

air.

air:
breathe,
fill,
feel,
reflect.

The Karaniya Metta Sutta: Hymn of Universal Love

Who seeks to promote his welfare,
Having glimpsed the state of perfect peace,
Should be able, honest and upright,
Gentle in speech, meek and not proud.

Contented, he ought to be easy to support,
Not over-busy, and simple in living.
Tranquil his senses, let him be prudent,
And not brazen, nor fawning on families.

Also, he must refrain from any action
That gives the wise reason to reprove him.
(Then let him cultivate the thought:)
May all be well and secure,
May all beings be happy!

Whatever living creatures there be,
Without exception, weak or strong,
Long, huge or middle-sized,
Or short, minute or bulky,

Whether visible or invisible,
And those living far or near,
The born and those seeking birth,
May all beings be happy!

Let none deceive or decry
His fellow anywhere;
Let none wish others harm
In resentment or in hate.

Just as with her own life
A mother shields from hurt
Her own son, her only child,
Let all-embracing thoughts
For all beings be yours.

Cultivate an all-embracing mind of love
For all throughout the universe,
In all its height, depth and breadth —
Love that is untroubled
And beyond hatred or enmity.

As you stand, walk, sit or lie,
So long as you are awake,
Pursue this awareness with your might:
It is deemed the Divine State here.

Holding no more to wrong beliefs,
With virtue and vision of the ultimate,
And having overcome all sensual desire,
Never in a womb is one born again.

-from Metta, The Philosophy and Practice of Universal Love by Acharya Buddharakkhita
http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/buddharakkhita/wheel365.html

songs

the power of music
those which takes you along
by the hand;
by the heart
the gradual set up
the semi meditative state
the desired chorus
over and over
pour them out, your everything
from the heart, the mind and the soul.

zhik diam tzeng ê kun;
zhik diam tzeng ê tzeng xin;
san zhap meh ê xin tzen,
an zhua bhun bi bhui kui.

the morbid silence;
mechanical clicking of steel;
systematic shuffling of feet;
eyes penetrating the space beneath;

semibaseless anticipation of unknowns
in the name of values and misson
for the common good
- what common good?
suppose the apparent 'common interest' instead.

sleep
like sedation
like a cat ladder
yet it drops you down another rabbit hole where nightmares may ensue

light headed chaos
weariness
'to sleep perchance to sleep'
off one drifts!
with that sugar in the blood,
like a rush Hits you over,
knocks you down
when you cease to think, but dream.

meow

me: (beckons) tsuk tsuk
kitteh: (skitters over) mow

me: (mimics) meow
kitteh: mow

me: mow!
kitteh: mowww

me: MOWW
kitteh: MOWW

me: meowww
kitteh: *paw swipes*

"if"

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream–and not make dreams your master,
If you can think–and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings–nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And–which is more–you’ll be a Man, my son!

- rudyard kipling
http://www.adamandtiffy.com/blog/if-by-rudyard-kipling

"what makes the desert beautiful, is that somewhere it hides a well…"
- the little prince, antoine de saint-exupery

http://www.angelfire.com/hi/littleprince/

even (2)

when compasses need to be realigned
purpose need to be redefined

like a torrent
here comes the rain
splashing upon
fully awake
over and over
persistence.

even

..compasses needed to be realigned
..changes needed to be reapplied
..perspectives needed to be redefined
..truths had to be reverified.

時間が経って初めて気付いた
一人になって出来ない事の多さ
溜まっていく洗濯 毎日の外食
週末 日曜日過ごす孤独 持て余してる
いっぱいもらってた 小さな優しさ
お前が引き出してくれた 俺らしさ
何気ない事の方が大切だと分かった
夏の海のオレンジ色の空を見ながら
思い出の浜辺 やっと来れたぜ
大丈夫さ 一歩一歩 俺は俺で頑張って歩くから

- 恋時雨,湘南乃風

sleepless; incoherence

mindlessly mindful
sleepless
with recollections
partially incoherent
thought it was fatigue
yes it is, oh wait its not?

that's not how you define fatigue
not by engineering law
by rationality, logical reasoning
divergent thought processes I'll say
inept in dealing with the emotional state of mind of course

does it make sense? no.
no not all things do; some don't.

at the crossroads behind cover

living in the moment
leap and bound
bound to bound
into the rabbit hole - fall
barriers hit and detoured from
signals & signs watched out for
for the final objective;
mission;
the ultimate destination

at the crossroads to no certain where
how long are you going to remain under cover?
fall you must, fall
get up you must
maju depan; go.

before cessation.

day after day
the things you see, you hear, you touch
the people you interact with: tangibles;

the intangibles you feel
with your heart and soul
may the emotions fill you in
and the thoughts that set you pondering

remember to etch them into your memories
'cos you will look back, again and again
when either of these or you cease to exist.

unspoken words (2)

unspoken words (2)

meeting of eyes
converging focus
deep resonance
how intense can it be?

meeting of eyes
split second focus
shifting like a fugitive
how elusive can it be?

meeting of eyes
grazing focus
fleeting like trajectory
how remote can it be?

meeting of eyes
adjacent focus
non verbalised articulation
how would you know what it was supposed to be?

here there is

here there is
the usual golden sunshine
the usual flurry of people
the usual vantage point
the usual tasks to perform
the usual day ahead

for the future that you continue to wait
for the present you always live in
for the past that you've partaken
for the present you continue to effect change
for the future you always try to create.

for..?